Monday, October 8, 2012

Why I just hid all of my posts.

Here's why I just hid all of those posts--

Having all of those posts there, happening as my life happens, is making me feel like my ex-wife-in-law can figure out who I am too easily. I was thinking of republishing those posts later, so the timeline is off. 

Also, I wish I'd set this blog up differently. I'd like a do over. Shoot, I'd like a do over on lots of things, but this is one place where I can actually have one. So, I'll take it!

I need a break. It's not that I'm here a lot. Still, every time I sit at my computer I feel like I should check in and I'm too worn out and I'm feeling guilty. Here's how worn out I'm feeling-- When it was time to read bedtime stories, I made myself a cup of tea and then poured it into a wine glass, so none of my kids would ask me to make tea for them. That's lame. That's pathetic. That's too tired.

Sometimes I feel misunderstood. Sometimes I feel like I'm making mistakes on top of mistakes. I'm pretty sure, though, that the rate of occurrence for those bad things has slowed. It might have slowed to something near normal! I think it might be time to give myself a first name. I'm going with Audrey. Audrey Taken. I like that it sorta sounds like "all ready taken". Sorry, guys, but I'm a keeper.

One last thing before I sign out here-- I just adore you ladies! The women who lurk around here reading my posts must be, for the most part, stepmoms with a mentally ill ex-wife-in-law. I'm so sorry! I wish I was the only one! I think about you stepmoms all the time. When the poo hits the fan for me, I wonder who else is struggling through their day. I'm sorry you're dealing with similar poo, but it's been so good to know that I'm not alone. So for goodness sake, send me an email and say hi when you're needing a friend.

My love to you and yours!
Audrey Taken